Birthday Wish...

Tomorrow is my birthday, it has been a rushed week.I found out about Amanda on Wednesday,and I got out of school on Thursday and I am now thinking about summer trips, swimming, and my birthday. Sweet 13! This birthday is exciting for me it's my first birthday with Ayanna(for those of you who don't know my family we adopted a 12 year old girl this year)and It is my first birthday without two little girls. two little girls who I grew very close to over the past year. This time last year I didn't know a lot about SMA it was when i heard about GSF that everything people told me about Jadon became reality. I didn't know that it was terminal and that it affected their breathing or that they couldn't swallow and eat solid food but this is besides the point. The past year I went through some amazing and some depressing changes. This past year I lost Skylar my favorite 21 month old girl. after Skylar died I was mad at God and when I talked about her I would try to make it sound like I was okay with every thing but I wasn't I was very mad. all this changed a little while ago at the beginning of this month on the 3rd I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal savior. I now understand a lot more about why God took Skylar(and Amanda)home to be with him.... He had a purpose for her and He wanted her to go right then. And now she is carefree and so so so so happy. and I'm happy because she is happy. I am so thankful to God for giving me this new perspective. I'm excited for tommorw and for a brand new year when I will grow closer to him and will be watching all the kids I follow grow up to the age He wants them to. So tomorrow as I blow out the candels on my cake there will be only one wish in my mind and on my heart...that God will bring us a cure for SMA and that He will allow Jadon,Gwendolyn,Nora,Lucy and all the other kids to live until He brings us a cure. Thanks for putting up with my weird out of order paragraph and I hope you have a great day tomorrow. God bless!